I didn’t make the blog about the last Full Moon, you know the Full Moon Eclipse in Cancer (plus Saturn Pluto conjunction), only two biggies then!
I didn’t forget.
The need to do it was like two big beaming headlights, at me - a rabbit in the road, but the closer the time got the more I could see that If I aligned myself to the headlights I would get run over. I had to stay right where I was, in my own alignment and allow the power of the full midstream to go right over my head.
Well if I will have my natal Moon smack bang where the eclipse was!
I was on quite a journey at the time, in many senses of the word:
I was on a physical journey to Tulum in Mexico,
I was on a mental journey of holding space for a retreat.
I was on an emotional journey of leaving my husband for three weeks of travelling alone.
I was on a spiritual journey of The Transformational Truth of Mayan Astrology and Past Lives plus The Fool’s Journey.
The power of this eclipse clearly had me totally immersed and I could not come up for air until after it had passed.
I had to go through the initiation before I could pass the knowledge on to you.
And now at this time of the New Moon in Aquarius (the one everyone is dreading) here it is.
My recent initiation and the messages to pass on to you.
But before I do, I should try and fit in a word or two about this New Moon…
The New Moon in Aquarius strikes:
- Los Angeles, January 24 at 3:41 pm
- New York, January 24 at 4:41 pm
- London, January 24 at 9:41 pm
- Delhi, January 25 at 3:11 am
- Sydney, January 25 at 8:41 am
But of course, just like any astrological alignment, it doesn’t just strike then, it builds up.
The reason the horoscopes are being proper horror scopes about it is because of the following reasons:
1. This Moon falls in Aquarius - but just like anytime the Moon is in Aquarius, it’s not that happy. The Moon is an emotional planet, and Aquarius is a sign that karmically replays the feeling of not being got, understood, loved or accepted. Anastacia’s Left Outside Alone lyrics ring through my head as I type this...And I wonder if you know. How it really feels. To be left outside alone. When it's cold out here.
2. The decan this Moon falls in rules The Five of Swords in the Tarot, quick cut offs and turn arounds that can feel harsh, bamboozling and unfair. The umbilical cord of the Moon is being cut and in a way that feels ultra harsh because:
3. This Moon is squaring Uranus - the ruler of Aquarius. Squares are tense inflexible aspects, formed between two planets at 90 degrees, a pointy hard edge. Aquarius is fixed so there’s no room for flexibility here. It’s a double hard edged cold whammy.
How does this translate?
You just have to look at what is happening in the most public family in the world to see (the Royals) what with Phillip, Harry and Megan, the truth will out and the as it does so the challenge for healing ups it’s game.
If you think back over the past week maybe you can recall being on the receiving end of two or three situations which seem totally out of the blue, a bit harsh and judgmental, a shocking flash in the pan or just so cold you can’t get through?
But, really deep down, is any of this such a shock? Didn’t you already feel it or know it at some level?
Last week I had three such occurrences.
1. The Flash in the pan: which I felt was brewing, and it was over as soon as it began - in an incredible way! I sat in shock at the initial message (even though I could feel the rumbling) and wondered what to do. I was on The Tower card at the time, and I felt The Star activate (Also Aquarius - so here’s a clue of the saving grace) and sent lots of amazing star light and love to the situation, - the situation cleared and did an instant 360!
2. The bit harsh: I received a message or two that wasn’t worded very diplomatically and felt a bit harsh to be on the receiving end of. I’ve felt the sword dig in when I read them. On one of them I didn’t manage to respond that well, being a bit defensive, but because I reiterated my take rather than point fingers the balm has been applied and healing quiet time is now here. On the other I felt the trigger, and then managed to turn it around just like in number 1. I looked for the gift in it, found it and it did that amazing instant 360 again :)
3. The frozen: I realised someone had defriended me on facebook so sent them a message just to check Facebook wasn’t doing it’s shenanigans (there was a time it seemed to be unfriending people randomly) they responded to say they had defriended me and I hadn’t done anything wrong, they were clearing what didn’t resonate anymore. I tried to open up the communication and got radio silence - this was hard. A typical Aquarius Anastacia “left outside alone” moment, that feels unresolved, cut off and unfair. I’ve been sending the Aquarian Star energy (which is actually their sign funnily enough!) and who knows maybe it thaw, but there’s no instant turn around by the looks of it this side of the New Moon.
So what is this New Moon trying to teach us?
Basically that it’s time to grow up! The umbilical cord is being cut and it’s time to take responsibility for what you create out there in the world. I always say that if we all had healthy self esteem then world peace would be a true thing.
How do we get there?
Love your own inner child. Give it the nurture it needs so it doesn’t get triggered by things like this New Moon is set to stir. Be the change you wish to see in the world. If you are on the receiving end of such things remember that person hasn’t managed to do the above and your job isn’t to make it harder for them, it’s to give your inner child a hug, and then if you choose to respond, you can do so from love rather than pain. A good definition of Maturity is when you don’t need to hurt someone who has hurt you.
As Wayne Dyer says - How people treat you is their karma, how you respond is yours.
It’s a Moon like this that calls for extra emphasis on Don Miguel Ruiz’s Four Agreements:
A life saving structure that means I CAN respond in a way that is understanding because I doesn’t take it so personally, a framework that supports me to grow up and be mature, in a way that feels nurturing to my inner child.
Those of you that follow my work know how much I bring this in, In fact it’s the backbone of my T’s and C’s! If you aren’t following this then I can’t work with you. Each and every person in my groups follows the four agreements, it’s what keeps it safe. Follow this and you’ll fly with that Aquarian star magic this New Moon!
There’s another sign that’s Aquarian in the Major Arcana of the Tarot and that’s The Fool (the child) so you get to choose this New Moon, whether you want to be The Child or The Star, but even The Fool is magical.
It sets us on a journey of becoming on our soul’s evolution.
And the Tarot has this journey in it.
What I do is I take people on this journey and watch them “become”.
It’s a journey I have undertaken many times.
One I said I’d be sharing with you about ten paragraphs ago when I said before I do a word or two about this New Moon!
So here you go, on a 22 day journey of becoming in this new era:
DAY 1 - THE FOOL:
In this world we are trained to go after our dreams in an A to B fashion but it hardly ever turns out like that - it’s much more a Fool’s Journey full of twists and turns - and to be afraid of that journey is to be afraid of the magic of life, and to be afraid of the magic of life makes things a lot harder than need be.
This I remind myself of as I take out The Fool from The Modern Witches Tarot and stick the card in my bra to come along for the ride ( thinking of the client that does that as I do so). You see, in a couple of hours I start a physical journey when I board the coach from Bath to Heathrow for my return to Mexico.
It’s the perfect day to start The Fool’s Journey again (sometimes better known as The Hero’s Journey).
Several years ago I did this very thing, a very foolish thing, I caught a plane to Mexico. I didn’t know why, I had no plan, I'd never heard of the place I was flying to (Cancun) I just went.
And I came back with so many answers.
Answers about why my life was the way it was.
Answers to why my clients lives were like they were.
And I also came back with the concept of The Transformational Truth of Tarot Game Changer - which appeared out of the blue as a bonus!
This time I have some idea, of the places where I’m staying, of what I’m doing, and I also know I do not know the grander plan and how grand is that?
The energy that is pulsating right through me the last few days is electric, synchronistic and incredibly delightful.
I may be starting with The Fool today, but I have been feeling The Fool let loose within me for days before hand, his power building up within me.
The Fool is within us all, if we could just trust there is divine wisdom in coddiwomple!
*coddiwomple - to go towards a destination with no plan or idea why
I feel like Dorothy in the return to Oz. Dorothy is the original fool - on the original fools journey, Toto the original Fool’s dog guiding her intuitively along the yellow brick road in a magical world, that she has to rely on Toto (her intuition) to guide her.
I couldn’t go with a plan if I tried right now and that feels fantastic!
By the way - when I land I find out today is Fool’s day in Mexico (December 28th) 😱
MESSAGE FROM THE FOOL: Trust in letting go and divine timing
DAY 2 - THE MAGICIAN:
I am staying in what feels like a glass cube in the jungle and loving being immersed in the elements. It’s got fantastic nets so the insects stay out but the high and huge windows have to stay open because it’s just too hot and humid to not have the element of air ( The Magician 🎩).
The Modern Witches Magician has me thinking how I don’t look like her but how a lot of people here do.
In the evening I take a walk into Tulum and witness one of the most amazing things I have ever seen -at dusk and the birds went crazy. So much so I wondered if a natural disaster was on its way, but everyone was going about their day as if it was normal - and apparently it is. 😱😱 I couldn’t help but think how Thoth (The Magician) turned into an ibis bird to make the sky goddess Nut dream come true. It was utterly astonishing to witness, the birds 🦅 seemed like they were possessed by manifesting some kind of magic - but everyone saw it as so normal 😱
I also saw an ice cream shop called after a friend of mine who reminds me of the magician - there was a stop sign outside so I took a photo and told him to stop eating all the icecream - he laughed because he’s been binging on ice cream!
MESSAGE FROM THE MAGICIAN 🎩? Magic is everywhere, even in the everyday humdrum, when something or someone is new to us it feels magical - the trick is to keep the magic (air) circulating, keep your eyes open, new and fresh, EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
DAYS 3 & 4 - THE HIGH PRIESTESS AND EMPRESS:
I’m bunching together my days on The High Priestess and on The Empress because I’m looking for a place to catch up and I think The Empress took a backseat so I could.
When I saw The High Priestess in the modern witches tarot I was like oh heck!
I had woken up inspired to put together a last minute 2020 vision offer - which meant re - opening my tarot parlour (High Priestess) and I knew I was going to be chained to my laptop ALL DAY - I wasn’t wrong!
18 solid hours later at 1am New Year’s Day I managed to finally get all the pieces in some working order and could move on to the Empress who was quite gentle with me!
She didn’t show up much apart from I felt a bit like a queen and was being quite snobby with snobbishness!
I was not very happy with a beach club restaurant (they are known for being expensive) giving me the change less the tip ( I then begrudged giving them any tip whatsoever) or a taxi driver taking me to the wrong place - both I felt had made assumptions that I was paying for and the queen in me did not respond well to that!
MESSAGE FROM THE DIVINE FEMININE (HIGH PRIESTESS AND EMPRESS)? You can’t expect others to have the same standards as you. Instead look at WHY it triggered you? See what’s behind that and you’ll see the value.
DAYS 5 - THE EMPEROR:
Have you felt The Emperor land yet?
He rules this year 2020 because in the Tarot he is number 4 and this is a number 4 year.
One thing I love about The Fool’s Journey is that you FEEL the archetypes come alive.
Here's what happened when I went out with The Emperor yesterday!...
I whizzed past speed signs, that said: "The only limit is yourself!" and 4 others each with one word:
WTF? Am I hallucinating or does Mexico has some kind of spiritual guru for road patrol or something?! Whizzing past so fast gave both a strong subliminal feel to them and by the time I got to the beach I was on fire, not just with the heat of the Caribbean, but the fire of The Emperor.
I had to broadcast a video message from him there and then through to my group, the gist was about our creative power and how important it is to be in alignment with integrity, this year more than ever.
Other Emperor happenings:
1. Whilst visiting Tulum Ruins I heard about the conquests of the red four cornered god of creation (Emperor)
2. Upon leaving the ruins four Mayans in red climbed to the top of a pole and then threw themselves off a structure with four corners dangling by their foot! Hanged Man (spiritual side) of The Emperor - which I’m being shown more and more lately.
MESSAGE FROM THE EMPEROR: Real successful climbs to the top only happen if you are really and truly in alignment spiritually first.
DAYS 6 - THE HIGH PRIEST
What a High Priest day!
I ran out of clothes!
I literally walked along the highway commando in a long robe just like a High Priest I guess! Lol!
I wasn’t having much luck flagging a taxi down, and began to think how much mixed experience I’d been having with the Tulum taxi men 🤔
I’ve never for one second felt unsafe in Tulum but it was very clear to me how some taxi drivers will charge you twice as much if you “aren’t in the know”
So walking along I set my intention with a positive affirmation “ I attract the taxi service that wishes to serve me with integrity”
It wasn’t long before a jolly chap stopped to pick me up for the right price (50 pesos) he went a different way to normal and was keen to reassure me it was because of the wind 🌬 but he didn’t know how to say wind and so I was trying to teach him by exaggerating the d and now he thinks the word for wind is window! 🤣 he was very excitable so it was hard to correct him! 🤣
I wish I’d set my intention for the laundrette though - it’s high season here and there was no room at the inn - unless you are in the secret order I feel ;)
So I got a taxi back again - this one thought I said Una Vida not Buena Vida and so took me to Una Vida!
When we got there it took about 5 minutes to communicate this to him - he was just smiling and saying yes and nodding and sitting there waiting patiently for me to get out 😂 eventually he understood what had happened and found it incredibly funny 😂 but then he was lost too! 😂
So we were driving around the back streets of Tulum and he was just laughing and repeating “Buena Vida not Una Vida!” “Good life not one life!” 😂🤣🙌 oh gosh I thought! He’s going to charge me a packet!! But when we finally got there and I asked him how much he told me "no passanada!" 🤣I did insist on paying him a little more than 50 pesos!
MESSAGE FROM THE HIGH PRIEST: Consciously Set Your Intentions For Your Day!
DAY 7 - THE LOVERS
Day 2 of going commando. After no room at the laundry I washed my clothes in cold water with hand soap and put them out to dry whilst I started a day of back to back 2020 Vision sessions.
As soon as I did so the heavens opened - and did not close - all. day. Long. We are talking full on tropical storm. Well I’m not good at washing - so I guess at least they are getting a proper rinse but oh god I’ve only got the stuff I’m wearing dry now!
I was supposed to meet a friend for dinner - cancelled.
I was supposed to go on a jungle walk - cancelled.
I felt like a wet blanket - so much for lovers day! I feel all alone 😢
The rain eased up around 5pm and I took myself for a walk - first I saw what represented the garden of Eden to me but with its gates shut unless you had the money to buy it - so much for its harder than a rich man to enter heaven than it is for a camel 🐫 to pass through the eye of a needle 🙅♀️ But, I kept going and keep found heaven right at the end of the road! A place called holistika - a proper jungle heaven!
A wayyyyy bigger and better paradise playground open portal that has ecstatic dance 💃 oh my!
Now that’s my kind of heaven!
MESSAGE FROM THE LOVERS: Don’t expect others to fill your void, fill your own!
DAY 8 - THE CHARIOT
Chariot day got more and more trippy as it went on. I first heard the rev of it’s engine in the morning when a client chose this card to set the intention of passing her motorbike theory test that she kept failing, stating “ I’ve driven all my life - I don’t get why I’m finding it so hard!” - sums up The Chariot! Especially in The Modern Witches Tarot deck I’m journeying with!
Next I met my friend for lunch (today) and as she reigned up her dogs whilst talking to me about a true film called “Toga” a hero sleigh dog 🐕 I totally saw The Chariot again.
In the evening I went to the ecstatic dance in a dome in the jungle that looked like a spaceship!
Inside we went through the 7 chakras and dimensions - The Chariot is number 7, has 7 dimensions and is linked to meteorites ( that the Yucutan was hit by) and Merkabah - the light body.
I felt exhausted when I entered and we danced the root chakra. Like I wanted to burst out laughing at the sacral sexy dance 💃😂 we were supposed to have our eyes shut but I kept peeking and seeing big busts and gyrating groins in my face!
When we got to the third eye I was so resistant I nearly left but the speaker blasted out “ don’t stop me now I’m gonna make a supersonic man outta you!” So I stayed and I was so glad I did as the healing that followed was outta this world!
MESSAGE FROM THE CHARIOT: This is a ride you’ve undertaken! Stay on it for the whole thing or you’ll never get there! What’s the point of buying a ticket for A to B if you get off at A and a half?
DAY 9 - STRENGTH
Strength day, a day of transition from being alone in the jungle to holding space at the beach for 3 other beautiful women to join me. The weather was better and I got to do a jungle art walk before I checked out. The art was out of this world (as you can probably see) - I didn’t like the look of the head but when we went inside there was a very spacey resonance and the hole at the top of the head represented channelling consciousness - just like the head coming out of the ground represented emerging consciousness - something to do with a new level of consciousness that the Mayans believe is being channelled to us since 24th May 2017 - and this date is more important than Dec 21st 2012 apparently - that gives me hope 🙏💖✨ Where was Strength? In the art, in the jungle and in the beautiful ladies that arrived - one of them - a Leo was wearing an infinity bracelet. And so the strength to hold space for strength to emerge begins…
MESSAGE FROM STRENGTH: I am to be found everywhere, in everything and everyone, look for me and connect there, and you will find healing, faith and a new level of consciousness.
DAY 10 - THE HERMIT:
The Hermits that have travelled far to be here for their spiritual pilgrimage are coming out of their cabanas and going on a wild Sian Kaan adventure exploring Mayan mangroves and ruins. We watched monkeys 🐒 swinging through the jungle - were warned about puma poo 💩 and then decided to meditate right by it! You know like you do! In the meditation I got a really strong message to call the divine down to earth to see their presence more - (maybe it was seeing all the Mayan gods - they are all upside down because they descend to earth head first - hence the Emperor’s hanging by their foot).
Straight after we saw a palm leaf moving on its own quite powerfully and then the freakiest thing happened... We got in a boat to see the crocodile 🐊 temple - a tiny Mayan ruin that’s out on a wild unkept part of the jungle - the tour guide said we could go in - and I am glad I went in before the group because as I crouched down to enter this tiny temple I got to the back only to realise I walked right into a snake 🐍 den 😮 first time I’ve ever come face to face with a real wild snake - it was huge and I backed right out pretty fast. It was a pit viper. Snakes 🐍 that make the ruins their homes 🏠 they are highly defensive and venomous and a bite can kill you in 20 minutes. Well if I will tell the gods to make their presence felt and then enter a temple! 😮 Be careful what you wish for!
MESSAGE FROM THE HERMIT: Wise up and humble yourself! Respect the power and divinity in every life.
DAY 11 - THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE:
You couldn’t make this up if you tried but The Wheel came in the night of The Hermit when we spent the evening studying the Mayan Calendar, our heads were blown and we were more than ready for sleep but no sooner had we turned in than an all night full moon 🌕 trance beach party broke out - until 7:30 am!
The last song they played was “Sweet Dreams” but we needed to get up for a day full of past life regression training - we walked the wheel of the labyrinth like zombies and managed to do the diploma with much ease and grace - too tired for resistance! The trances were accessed so fast and quick it just flowed!
To close down we did a Temezcal - Mexican Sweat Lodge - we sat in a wheel like igloo, and went through 4 dimensions together with an incredibly knowledgeable shaman - it was incredible.
Just, if I put on The Transformational Truth of Tulum again you have to come and experience the flow of ease, grace and magic for yourself, this is Tulum’s gift to the world as far as I’m concerned. It has the power to allow you to be connected to you and let go of all the shoulda and shouldn’t, it reminds you that if you get out of the way the flow of magic is seen so powerfully everyday, even those things that seem bad - like an all night party, was actually perfectly and divinely timed, it all made a turn for an incredible flow of much ease and grace - no energy, no resistance, no ego, just smooth and graceful death and rebirth 🙏💖✨
MESSAGE FROM THE WHEEL: Stop judging things in your path as going wrong - they are just going exactly the way they are meant to, let the wheel turn.
DAY 12 - JUSTICE!
Justice! I’m feeling the connection with the Gods getting stronger every day. Today was beach day - and night, another full moon 🌕 party scheduled but justice prevailed being the goddess of the air, she whipped up the wind 🌬 which was so much easier to fall asleep to than boom, boom, boom! 💖🙏✨
MESSAGE FROM JUSTICE: Is straight to the point, just like her! Connect with the Gods, feel their presence and watch them move mountains to support you.
DAY 13 - THE HANGED MAN!
I just happen to be in the ultimate human sacrificial place of Chichen Itza 😮 and on the day of the Eclipse! I had it in my head as tomorrow so that was a shock!
The tour guide had us looking through obsidian discs at the sun at the time of the eclipse!
He had no idea about the eclipse or properties of Obsidian:
Obsidian is a powerful cleanser of psychic smog created within your aura, and is a strong psychic protection stone. This stone has powerful metaphysical properties that will help to shield you against negativity. The energy of these stones may stimulate the gift of prophecy. 😮
Pretty powerful flow of divinely timed events I would say!
It’s my second time here and it’s no less foreboding, intimidating and imposing than the first...
We cleared ourselves in a cenote afterwards like the Neptune god that rules The Hanged Man - (known for sacrifice) remember all Mayan gods are pictured upside down btw - (descending from above).
In the evening we went on to have the most trippy psychedelic heart opening cacao ceremony - - just like chichen itza -it was a mind blowing trip out of this world 😮
MESSAGE FROM THE HANGED MAN: I am the divine in charge of timing - sacrifice your plan, your ego, your mind, and marvel at the magic that happens.
DAY 14 - DEATH
I feel like I lived 3 lives in 1 day...
1. The day began with a sunrise closing circle at the labyrinth. We walked the labyrinth to the centre processing each and every step of the retreat, the Mayan ruins, the monkeys 🐵 heron’s and snakes 🐍 we witnessed, the teachings of Mayan Astrology and Past Life Regression, the shamans that lead us through the purifying and heart opening rituals of temezcal and cacao, the crazy alignment of looking at the sun through obsidian at chichen itza at the time of the eclipse, and the certification of Past life, PHEW!
We walked it all in as the winds of change whipped up a storm 🙏💖✨ and we walked back out different people to those that came together for a sacred rite of passage 5 days earlier. Aligned to who we are deep within and ready to walk that path - but the test is always in going back to real life…
2. As soon as I left I was challenged by a Airbnb check in that left me lost and locked out in the midday sun with no water and lots of luggage.
3. As soon as I got in I went straight out again because the party noise was so bad - I ended up at a restaurant I didn’t trust, worried that I’d be poisoned 🤢 and returned to an escalation of noise which meant after 6 hours it was only getting worse, I couldn’t think, the place was literally driving me crazy .
This was my first test.
☠️What would the old me do?
😻What will the new me do?
The old me would have suffered in silence 🤐
The new me wasn’t up for that.
I asked for my money back, got it and went to stay with one of my clients in a luxury hotel at her generous invite!
I feel like I went through 🏘3 homes, 3 lives and 3 initiations in 1 day.
MESSAGE FROM DEATH: Look after your own needs like your life depends on it because it does.
DAY 15 - TEMPERANCE:
I woke up in heaven when I could have so easily been In hell.
This is Temperance - who oversees the souls of the newly departed and takes them to wherever they need to go - heaven or hell.
It all depends on the choices the newly departed soul made previously.
The day before it was time to depart from the safety of the retreat and the choice my previous self made led me to a dark and dismal Airbnb experience, but Temperance showed me it’s never too late to repent change your ways!
Instead of suffering in silence I said “I’m leaving this place because I deserve peace, nurture, flow, ease and sanctuary and that’s what I’m choosing for myself.”
When I voiced that Temperance changed her route, my ticket to hell was refunded, I attracted a temperate taxi who charged me the cheapest fare ever in Tulum and transported me to heaven - my client had booked in a luxury boutique hotel (which happened to be out of thousands in Tulum - Una Vida! See High Priest day!) and opened her arms to receive me gracefully for the night.
And that’s where I woke up - literally.
I knew what I did and didn’t want anymore, I felt myself uplevelling, and from that new me I booked another Airbnb.
When it was time to depart Temperance transported me from boutique hotel heaven to cute little jungle abode - with a transient swinging hammock chair and once again all’s right in my little world 🌍
MESSAGE FROM TEMPERANCE: It’s never too late to change your ways, as soon as you start choosing differently, things will start to change.
DAY 16 - THE DEVIL
The Devil is Saturn/Satan - he means business, and today was no different. Sessions, sessions, sessions morning noon and night meant no time to explore the beach or cenotes for me, oh no siree, it was time to get my head down and work, work, work, with the hard task master. But was it bad? Absolutely not! I had a bunch of cracking 1:2:1 sessions with cracking clients - and had someone land in my lap to help me uplevel The Transformational Truth of Tarot Game Changer!
Yup! … In 2016 I did a Temezcal (sweat lodge in the dark) in Tulum and The Transformational Truth of Tarot Game Changer came out of nowhere - it landed in my head, just like that, I wasn’t even thinking of doing a game! Well, 4 years later I am back, in Tulum after doing a Temezcal and the same thing just happened! I can’t say much more at the moment but WOW WHAT MANIFESTING MAGIC!
MESSAGE FROM THE DEVIL: Don’t fear me, magic manifests from dark places.
DAY 17 - THE TOWER AND THE STAR:
When doing The Fool’s Journey the practice really kicks in when it’s time to go through the last part ( Death 💀, Devil 😈 and The Tower).
I’ve learnt that the journey will never give you what you expect so just do it, just live through it and be pleasantly surprised - even if it’s tough, the magic will astound you and the fact the energy will change with the next day makes it all the more bearable.
So today, I wake up on The Tower with a sciatica flare up, at the same time my phone goes ping with a client having a flare up/ meltdown/ breakdown, but it was incredible how one second it looked like The Tower crumbling and the next it was totally restored, to something even bigger, brighter and better than before - and it was already good 👌😍💥 it was such a fast and incredible turn around I wondered if The Star had moved in.
The sciatica didn’t let up though- I managed to hobble around the corner by the evening to ask the yoga teacher in one of the many boutique hotels if her class could help me, well she said no, she actually advised me to not do anything except meditate. Then no-one turned up for her class so she gave me a full 1:2:1 yoga nidra with head massage for free! I did tip her generously though
She was so soft and gentle I knew for sure that The Tower was a quick flash in the pan that morning and The Star 💫 had well and truly kicked in 🙏💖✨ Thank you universe.
MESSAGE FROM THE TOWER AND THE STAR: We are two sides of the same thing you cannot receive the gift before there’s no reason to receive.
DAY 18 - THE MOON:
I woke up wondering if I was on The Moon 🌓 or The Star 💫 - I knew for sure The Tower had been and gone in a flash ⚡️ with my flare up with sciatica and a client the day before which had healed just as fast thanks to the Star coming in just as fast. But now? Was I still on The Star? I was confused. Confusion - that’s The Moon, I thought I opened up my cards and The Moon fell out - yes it felt moony - it was 4:30am and dark. I had to get up for a group planning session on UK time lasting 3 hours and I was feeling like I was coming down with something - made worse by the fact I’d left my water at the restaurant last night and they didn’t open for another 4 hours ( you can’t drink tap water in Mexico) by the time I finished I had a very sore throat and had to cancel my 1:2:1 sessions for the day. Apart from my Transformational Truth of Tarot group that is, which I had to hold. I was so gone by that point I could not think and had a raging sore throat. But I opened my mouth and a whole load of channeling came out 😱 like spirit just needed me to show up and the illness helped me to be an empty vessel for them. I Went to bed with The Sun at the ready by my bed waiting to energise me for my journey back tomorrow! Please?!
MESSAGE FROM THE MOON: Magic is within, when all feels super trippy the power is in the surrender.
DAY 19 and 20 - THE MOON 🌒 AND SUN🌞 )
Keeping The Sun by my bed didn’t work I’m still sick as a dog and it’s not too sunny here today for Tulum - so now I’m wondering if I’m still on The Moon? It’s not feeling very sunny at all. Oh heck! what with sciatica, and a crazy connecting flight in Mexico City this should be interesting!!
The Moon lasted from 4:30am PST on Wednesday until 4:35pm GMT on Friday...that’s a long arse dark dark night of the soul.
I wrote about my Moon day on Wednesday, not thinking for one moment it would last 72hours.
On Thursday I started my 33 hour return journey - With a cold 🤧and sciatica - It went like this:
1. Check out at 11 but no point getting a taxi til 2 at the earliest.
2. Hang around at the cafe on the corner ( to Ill and laden with bags to do anything else on the one cloudy ⛅️ day here - where’s The Sun?)
3. Get to the airport early - hang around in bars not feeling at all sunny 🌞
4. Get an overnight flight ✈️ first stop 2hrs later México City 🌃
5. Second flight 11:35 PST - 9 more hours of darkness - they wake us up at what feels like 5am (the plane has been darkened all this time) but it’s a 3:30 GMT landing.
6. I leave the plane but still don’t see The Sun - just a maze of travel escallators, and underground trains for me to get my coach at 4:35pm - I feel like I’m on Anika’s challenge but for the disabled - I get there bang on 4:35pm - that’s when I think that maybe The Sun 🌞 had kicked in (despite the fact by the time I got out it was dark agai ) I was no longer lost in time, I had connected with my will and got there even with sciatica and sickness - I’d made it just in time! That was a little miracle!
7. When I got home the first thing to greet me ( apart from smiley love from my hubby and cat) was my big Sun wall hanging 🌞with one look it all felt like Narnia - like my journey in Mexico suddenly got locked behind The Sun card.
8. So I believe I have moved on to The Sun now even though I’ve slept for 14 hours ( Iza has had two miaowing in my face fits to try and make me conscious in this time) I feel not very well and completely exhausted 💤 but The Sun 🌞 is shining outside for the first time in days for me - and the UK to apparently. Rich opened the curtains at 1pm for me to get some rays in a sunbathing kind of way - I think The Sun is working to restore my health - who never gets a cold in the UK but brings one home from the Caribbean? 🙋♀️
9. Actually I think it’s more than a cold, we tried to go out for dinner tonight and it just made me very sick. I think I’ve picked up some tropical (Sun) type of bug.
MESSAGE FROM THE SUN: I am not about making you a human doing but a human being, there is much more life enhancing energy to be received in stillness.
DAY 20: JUDGEMENT
The clock ⏰ strikes midnight and ping my eyes 👀 pop open - oh heck the Judgment wake up call just happened.
I was full of an insatiable call to write and I know with judgment resistance is futile, you cannot disobey the call of the new creation. So up I rose.
I wrote for 4 hours (but time flew like 4 minutes) before sleep was granted once again.
Next time I wake it’s 11am - damn I missed yoga, but who am I kidding? I’m still limping like an invalid, my head is still pounding, my ears are still ringing, anc my stomach still gives me intense and sudden clear outs, I’m not feeling much better at all. In fact judgment seems to have increased the pounding of my head and ringing in my ears - like I’ve got an eternal trumpet 🎺 being sounded inside ( I hate the trumpet!)
Nevertheless Rich and I go for an afternoon stroll along the canal for Sunday lunch 🍴 at the pub alongside it. I’m motivated enough by the thought of a proper Sunday lunch ( I’m not so keen I’m Mexican food 🤢). So off we trot me at a lopsided snails 🐌 pace, him with incredible patience to keep his long Gemini ♊️ legs by my side and urge me to take it easy. Even though it’s sunny ☀️the landscape is a dramatic difference from palm trees and coconuts 🌴 to frosted banks of ice and steam from cold air hitting the water and rising. What with that and the boats on the canal - I was reminded of the coffins in Judgment.
2 paracetamol later and my head still pounds, my ears still ring and I’ve spent the rest of the day slipping in and out of consciousness between the land of the living and the not so living - maybe tomorrow when I reach the world 🌍 I’ll wake up feeling on top of it🤞🏾
MESSAGE FROM JUDGMENT: You’ll know when the time is right -and that doesn’t mean it will be convenient, it means you won’t be able to deny the call a moment longer.
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