Whenever I tell someone about my work, the first I ask them is…
“Have you heard of The Fool’s Journey?”
The answer is usually no! So then I ask…
Have you heard of Joseph Campbell’s “Hero’s Journey”?
The answer is still sometimes no, but a lot less - quite often it’s a yes.
So then I let them know the Hero’s Journey is The Fool’s Journey found in the Tarot.
Joseph Campbell is well known for being the creator of The Hero’s Journey - the model behind every successful book or film because it calls out to the hero in us.
What’s not so well known is that he was an avid tarot scholar and wrote the book “Tarot Revelations”.
So is it any surprise that The Hero’s Journey follows The Fool’s Journey (numerical step by step sequence of the Tarot)
- And so does it mirror the flow of the zodiac?
🤡 The Fool - Call to Adventure - Aquarius (but also no sign- perhaps we could even name him the 13th sign Ophiuchus - as he is often “forgotten about”
🪄The Magician - Mercury ruled (but SO Aries!) Meeting a Mentor
🧝♀️The High Priestess - Cancer (doesn’t quite follow the flow of the zodiac here so let’s put her as another planet - the Moon) Crossing the threshold
👨👩👦 The Empress - Venus, Emperor - Aries (the first sign) & High Priest - Taurus (the second sign The Helpers
👩❤️💋👨🏎 The Lovers - Gemini (the third sign) & The Chariot: Cancer (the fourth sign) - Trials and Failures
🦁 🧙♂️Strength- Leo (the fifth sign) & Hermit: Virgo (the sixth sign) - Growth and New Skills
🎡 Wheel - Again no sign but planet Jupiter for growth - Death and rebirth
⚖️🙃Justice - Libra (the seventh sign) and Hanged Man - Revelation (planetary ruled by Neptune )
⚰️🌈 Death - Scorpio (the eighth sign) and Temperance - Sagittarius (the ninth sign)
- Finally Changes
😈🗼Devil - Capricorn (the tenth sign) and Tower (no sign but planets Mars, Uranus and Pluto) - Atonement
🤩 Star - Aquarius- (the eleventh sign)- Gets Gift
🌕☀️🎺🌎 Moon - Pisces (the twelfth sign) Sun (Planetary ruled by theSun) Judgment (Planetary ruled by Pluto) The World (Planetary ruled by Saturn) - Returns Changed.
The Fool’s Journey, The Hero’s Journey and the Zodiac Journey are all one and the same journey.
Now all of us land at “return changed” this Full Moon in Pisces which strikes:
But if you feel groggy awakening from such a long lock down then where exactly are you returning changed from?
To know that:
On March 13th 2021: My new membership community for intuitives - Manifest a Miracle a Month was one month old.
On September 6th I’d been back in Granada for one week prepping for the first AstroTarotFlamenco Goddess in Granada Retreat since lockdown. I was a week into my current Fool’s Journey which saw me land on trials and failures and I had to rearrange the whole retreat in a matter of days.
Both experiences have taught me the need to open to anything we create, to get out of judgments of how we think it should be, and allow it to show us. In doing so creative endeavours get the space to evolve into the unique being it wishes to be.
Whenever I go travelling I start a new Fool’s Journey by taking The Fool card out of the pack and spending a day with it, noticing how it comes alive in my life.
Below I will share with you the summary of what I found - using Chris- Anne Donnelly’s Muse Deck:
The Fool - Day 1 - Call To Adventure - Ophiuchus
The song in the taxi from the airport was...“Just a fool to believe….. she’s like the wind” …
Day 2 - The Magician - Meeting The Mentor - Mercury
Want to see some Magic?
Look at the pic! Can you see it??
Other ways I’ve seen The Magician today is in the creator of this Muse deck - it’s Chris-Anne Donnelly’s birthday yay!
Chris-Anne once told me her astro placements are nearly all Mercury (ruler of The Magician) The Magician she created here looks like her too! Explains why she’s such a magical creator 🕺🪄
I also saw it in the hat I bought - it’s magic because it’s the same colour and has a bow ( infinity symbol ♾ is traditional symbol of The Magician) and also because I think I look alright in it and that must be magic because usually I look like a right twat in a hat 🤣
Keeping my day nice thank you 🙏
I then saw it in my mastermind clients - one of them went live with a dart 🎯 tarot game and threw 3 darts for another lady in the group and got triple 1!1 is the number of The Magician and not only that - the group nickname for her The Magician 🤣
Final place I saw it was in the guy cooking sardines - Slicing the freshwater ( cup) sardines ( sword 🗡 ) placing them on a stick (wand) cooking them in fire 🔥 in the open air and serving them on a pentacle plate 🍽 - the traditional Magician has a sword 🗡 cup 🏆wand 🪄and pentacle 🪙 on his altar - lord knows what effect his sardines were having on that lady 🤣
Day 3 The High Priestess - Crossing The Threshold - Moon My time with The High Priestess here in Spain feels like it’s always there… even if I only spend a day with the card.
I saw her in the incredible dream I had about the largest, most magical moon ever - so big it woke me up and I saw it in my room…
I saw her when I was struggling to open the bnb door and suddenly it opened with such a force I nearly fell down the steps ( to the underworld 🤣) and there on the other side was a woman in a silver satin dress saying “oh you scared me!”
So what about my actual day with her yesterday?
I woke from another powerful dream but it was not so enjoyable … I was cleaning shitty toilets blocked with nappies 🤣 I pulled the shitty nappies out - there were two that had messages on that I couldn’t see because of all the crap 💩
I laid it out on a table and was trying to package it up like you do a shitty nappy but it was so large and there was so much it was coming out the sides and this was all in public - people’s reactions were bringing up shame in me and I was like “ can’t you see I’m just trying to clear it for you?” 🤷🏽♀️
Next up I saw her in the disembodied cat meow I could hear but not see … found her on the other side of a window.
The day was VERY internal - I was aware of a deep inner process going on, one which needed more time to process than I seemed to be allowed. The result of which is that when I needed to communicate I did so guardedly and it did not turn out as well as it would have had I been okay with letting people in a bit more to see my process, journey and where I’m coming from… lesson learnt - again.
I’m not one for assigning keywords to tarot as each card is a divinity in their own right - even the description “hero with a thousand faces” limits them, this is why I journey with them regularly, even if I’m in lockdown - I’ll still journey… and each and every time the experience is different and at the same time there’s an underlying baseline lesson to embrace.
If you were to ask me what I would say the one for the High Priestess is I would say embrace your vulnerability and visibility … this is me doing exactly that 🙏💗
Day 3 - The Empress - Venus - Helpers
Landing in Granada when on The Empress yesterday was well … POWERFUL 🤣
My flat was right behind the Spanish Inquisition museum - friendly welcome back!
Then I went on a tour and found out the first church built after Isabel and Ferdinand has a painting of the Virgin Mary / High Priestess/ Isis - and a word engraved above it ( very similar to the word Tarot) Isabel put it there to claim her power as equal to her husband. All the planning for the inquisition went on inside though 😬
However, the lady I was most impressed to find out about was Mariana Pineda. At a very young age, Mariana was widowed with two children. She became very involved in liberal causes and in 1828 she assisted in Captain Fernando Álvarez de Sotomayor's escape from prison.
He was a noted liberal who had been condemned to death for taking part in General Rafael Riego's insurrection, and also Mariana's cousin.
In a search of her house in 1831 a flag was discovered with the embroidered slogan "Equality, Freedom and Law"
Mariana was arrested and accused of conspiracy.
After a failed escape attempt, she was detained in the Santa María Egipciaca convent in Granada. During the trial, the judge tried to persuade her to betray her accomplices in exchange for leniency, but she refused.
Mariana was publicly executed by the garrote on May 26 at only 26 years old - Her flag was burned in front of her. In 1856 Pineda was finally reinterred in Granada Cathedral.
I wondered how she felt about that! Whether it was a good feeling for her soul or not - the Spanish mean it in honour…
👉 The spookiest thing? The day we did this was the day she was born!
WOW! What an Empress day! 😱
Day 4 - The Emperor - Aries - Helpers
Look at the Flamenco vibe of this Emperor! If ever there was an Andulucian one here it is!
Similarly - If you like get aways that are more of a transformational “experience” you can't go wrong with Granada and not just because of its fascinating history and its sights ….
Granada was my home during my breakdown years (2016-18) . It took me into the heart of my dark night of the soul - something I’ve not been a stranger to, but it took me to the utter heart of it rather than skating around the edges…
Granada also gave me a magical place to process and heal what was rising up from my underworld - this time ( 4 years later) it feels similar and different all at the same time…It’s still intense but instead of holding me whilst I break, it’s putting me together and boldly told me to step out of any residual shame or conditioning and instead of worrying about things and taking things to heart, take charge and act from a place of power. It’s been quite a process that I can’t explain - words don’t do it justice, but as if to confirm...
Today I received the keys to a new flat (number 4 - the number of the Emperor) with an incredible view of the Alhambra which “The Red Sultan” built, I saw it as I opened my window - and I heard the Flamenco on the streets below - oh to live here!
Day 5 - The High Priest - Taurus - Helpers
Welcome to Tiff's Tales of The Alhambra - I step out on the street and see its presence dominating the end of the walk way. Reminding me I haven’t visited yet on this trip, but I know I will. I have history with The Alhambra - and you can’t ignore it.
It’s existence loomed in my life long before I ever knew it existed. It all started when I lived in a street not too dissimilar to this one but in Cornwall. I had Jane Johnson - a rather successful author as a neighbour, she was married to a sweet humble man, from the region of Morocco - that’s all I knew, they kept themselves to themselves.
Fast forward a couple of years and life took us to Bath, the land to see the beginning of my breakdown, which had me landing in Granada.
One day, sat in the gardens of the Alhambra I take out a book out of my bag, one I bought on recommendation.
“The Court of Lions”
A book about an English woman who has a past life connection with The Alhambra. Opening it up I read the foreword by the Author - Jane Johnson.
Day 6 - The Lovers - Trials and Failures
I spent the day with two of my good friends who are married to each other and make up two of the members in a fiercely loyal Flamenco group.
Some news landed in their lap from another couple that caused a division and forced them to make a decision from the head or the heart.
The decision is still inconclusive.
I also had to make a decision to split from the original place I was running the retreat.
Which meant we had to find a venue and replan the whole thing from scratch - in 6 days! - There's number 6!
Stress levels, heated words and tears were through the roof for us all this lovers day even though it was spent next to a lake and mountains of this colour.
- Trials and Failure here we come!
Day 7 - The Chariot - Trials and Failures - Cancer
I woke up on The Chariot. A part in the fool’s journey that’s notorious and I felt it.
😫I was completely drained.
The recent amount of last minute changes and challenges has taken its toll.
Maybe I just need a good breakfast.
I pick myself up and head on out, whilst listening to a message saying they got a strong message that I need to protect myself! Great!
One hour and three orders later I finally got the right breakfast - tostadas con tomatas con Jamon! Come on, it's not a banquet!
The staff are shouting Spanish at me in a v.intimidating way and it’s getting v.hot I look at my hand - my god it’s uncontrollably shaking.
After paying for the privilege I made a note to never return to this “rest- urant” and decide to go back to my apartment and barricade myself in.
On the way another misunderstanding (this time with someone important to me) blows up in my face 😫 But once I’m in it all starts to reconnect and ground in a way that makes everything better than before 😮💨
I have so much work to catch up on but I just can’t do it. I am so exhausted I have to give in to the Spanish Siesta but I can’t sleep because my nerves are so shot.
However as I lay down in my darkened room something more profound than sleep happens. I feel my heart crack open and all the stress and anxiety be taken out - it was powerful and profound.
After the siesta I tried to make headway but still it was like wading through treacle in a race against a speeded up clock. I was thankful that I’d booked the Hammam for that night, surely strength will kick in then?
On the way I see a bright pink neon sign “Be brave, Be True, Be Wild” hmmm 🤔 could be Chariot or Strength..
When I arrive I’m given locker 34 my birth number which deduces to the number 7 - The Chariot! 🤣
Into the chambers I go… okay I get it! It’s The Islamic seven planes initiation! Heck that’s pretty full on! 😱 TBC! 🙈😳🙌💗💃
Day 8 - Strength - Growth and New Skills- Leo
I wake up to a call to hold space for someone trying to decide whether to come on the retreat or not.
There’s no mistaking the presence of strength throughout the call, getting off late I join a zoom at the point where the mentor says…
“Feel the number 8 (the number of strength) pass right through you now” 😱💥 I’m plugged in, total instant reboot 🙌
Now I have my strength back I gotta ride that chariot instead of being dragged over the cobbles, the new moon is in a few hours and I still haven’t written the blog 🙈
Thank god for that “speedtype” program I had on the commodore as a child - even if my uncle did change it all to naughty phrases before emigrating to New Zealand! Lol!
Steam is coming off my finger tips and keyboard non stop from 5:30 - 8:30pm, the perfect time to get to the new Carmen, I want to try the eateries before the group arrives on Friday.
There’s only one open despite the tourists. It’s a moorish tea house. Amazingly there’s a table outside looking over the Alhambra at sunset- great fast service, great fresh food 🥘 🤗
Right! Time to walk to The Alhambra - again perfectly timed as this would be the time and place we set off from. I stand up and set my sights on The Alhambra on the other side of the valley.
I feel like Frodo without Sam - but I do have Siri I who tells me 20 minutes. Really?
20 minutes later I’m there at the foothills 🤣And boy I feel intimidated 😱 It's dark moon (day before the New Moon), and I’m crossing a viaduct.
I look down it’s just depth & darkness and looking up at The Alhambra - it’s just intimidation. 😳
I feel like the lil figure in The Hierophant I posted the picture of on High Priest day as I look up at the towering Alhambra cobbled fortress to climb.
As I climb I'm thankful for the lamps lighting my path, but as I progress the lights change, casting an array of shadows, producing multiple me’s, showing the lives I’ve had here or making me jump.
I know where I am now ( thank god for that or I’d be having a total meltdown) but still I’m freaked out by the unexpected desertion.
I’ve never felt the Alhambra so quiet, there should be two bustling bars right round the corner but all I hear is silence. I’m all too acutely aware of just how alone I am & I feel very not alone all at the same time. I call in the archangels. One lands right behind me shifting me from fear into a power walk - Damn that corner is going on forever … but finally I breakthrough to deserted bars but some civilisation.
🤔 Hmm is this the crossing point of Strength into The Hermit?
* Turns out we never walked that way in the end - feels like something I really was meant to experience alone.
The Hermit - Day 10 - Growth and New Skills - Virgo
I have journeyed with The Hermit when in Granada before, and been bowled over by the presence of lanterns and stars - all very Hermit. But The Hermit was a lot softer this time.
I didn’t think of the stars or the lanterns. Only how very alone I felt last night when Strength and The Hermit converged.
It taught me to be a bit wiser, but also that if I am in a situation like that going into fear doesn’t help and I do possess the tools to help me stand in my power.
The day with The Hermit was an enjoyable “normal” day, a walk and lunch with my friend (who has Virgo rising) planning and finalising the last bits of the retreat - I finally felt like I was landing and grounding, what a relief!
I also spent the evening on a call with my Mastermind Goddesses who are predominantly Virgo and of course, it was Virgo New Moon too!
The day of The Wheel - Day 11 - Death and Rebirth - Jupiter
The day went by in such a whirl of change I can’t really remember it. All I remember is that I woke up in the morning and the first thing I did was open the shutters on the balcony to take a picture of the fountain in the courtyard as it said Wheel to me.
I had to wait because the caretaker was cleaning it - that felt significant as today is the last day in my current accommodation.
Tomorrow I move on up from down by the river Darro area of the Albaycin to the San Nicolas Viewpoint area to get the retreat ready for the goddesses in Granada, AstroTarotFlamenco Retreat and changes that are coming.
Justice - Day 12 - Revelation - Libra
Boy Justice packs a punch!
First I check out of a place I felt very at home and into my new place on Calle Cinecerio (Ashtray street!)
There's no wifi but I’m not bothered as I know I am not about to have any time to be online.
Next it’s time to do that trek to The Alhambra again, but this time in the daylight and I’m actually going to enter - I’ve booked a tour to refresh my memory.
My tour guide showed me the courts of Justice and told me that I'd need to take the Goddesses through there for the night-time visit.
I never knew that door was there before and I’ve visited this place a Godzillion times
It feels significant that we will be stepping through the doors of Justice together tomorrow night...
The Alhambra has so many Pillars of Justice, Courts of Justice, Palaces of Justice - I never realised just how much, it is also a place full of betrayals and harsh injustice - and 80% of it is inscribed with the phrase “only God is perfect/victorious”
It got me thinking a lot about who we are to say what’s just and not?
But Justice easily whips my butt into a right righteous so and so, driving me to absolute INSANITY and so a Justice day in Spain is a recipe for disaster!
After a three hour tour of the Alhambra to refresh my memory I catch a taxi to the retreat place to get checked in on time - but of course, they aren’t on time.
When they finally arrived …
“Ok but first I have to ask him to come upstairs to eat your rug if you don’t mind?”
🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 OMG I was crying and howling with laughter bending over double and he just looked at me like 😳
So I tried to explain but all I could say is “para comer, 🤣 para comer” 🤣🤣🤣
2 hours later (9:30pm and I hadn’t eaten all day) the 3 amigos are walking out the door saying “we are going home now we will be back in an hour or two”
So I stand up and say “Where do you think you are going??? Oh no you don’t!!!”
Out comes the google translate again…
“We have finished, we are going home, in an hour or two you will have a hot Jaguar” 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Now I have the three amigos looking at me like i'm crazy 😳😳😳🤣🤣🤣
I finally get out the gate to walk back to my accommodation and the first thing I see is an old man with the word “before” written over the butt of his shorts? 🤷🏽♀️🤣🤣🤣 Feel’s like The Hanged Man is blending with Justice!
Oh and the first guest arrives - she’s Libra #ofcourse.
Hanged Man - Day 13 - Revelation - Neptune.
I wake up in hysterics at 5am on the day of the retreat - not sure if it’s just how funny I’m finding it now it’s sorted or if I’m a hysterical mess 🤣🤪
I’m finally in and ready and waiting to receive the retreaters - definitely in a limbo, I have to let go of what I was planning to do and just wait - every time I think maybe I might get a quick dip in the pool or bite to eat something happens and I can’t - instead I get to take this photo of part of the old city wall in the garden - they used to hang dodgy market traders weights on it the first time they were caught - and their hands the second time.
Death - Day 14 - Scorpio - Finally Changes
Death kicked in when everyone arrived - I know that sounds not good but it was great!
Firstly it’s a transformational retreat where Persephone is abducted by Hades death) and taken down to the underworld where she finds and ingests a Pomegranate (Granada) seed.
The Goddesses do exactly that on their arrival - ingest a pomegranate seed.
Secondly it was one of the retreaters birthday so we had cake and sang happy birthday ( death and rebirthday)
Thirdly - on the opening circle the goddesses looked to me like they were already emerging from a cocoon.
Fourthly - we had tapas in a square famous for having 3 wishes granted by Jesus on a Friday because when it got built in the neighbourhood no-one died of the Plague there - who needs a vaccine?
Fifthly Natalie took us to a tiny dark private theatre (underworld) for a private flamenco show where she rose up as a total on fire goddess.
She spread her fire so much it enthused us all to power walk up to the Alhambra instead of get a taxi. We entered through the gates of justice and listened to a call to prayer at the court of lions - I took this photo whilst listening - how many dancing Sultans do you see?
Temperance - Day 15 - Sagittarius - Finally Changes
There are no words that will do today Justice. You had to be there. It was a day of deeply transcending the layers and veils that keep us separated, a day of pure feeling and transcendence. A day where we melted into one another, and witnessed truly how it felt to be each and every person on the retreat - I will try to describe how we did it:
Step 1 - Each made AstroTarotMandalas from Birth Charts and Tarot so you can actually SEE the picture of your soul and all the aspects and personas within.
Step 2 - Each chose a relationship of the two personas they would like to harmonise
Step 3 - Each chose a song to represent the theme of the relationship aspect of the personas (Goddesses within) to harmonise.
Step 4 - Divide the group into two - half the group channels one persona and half the group channels the other persona.
Step 5 - Press play!
Step 6 - Let the profound connection, witnessing, embodying, empathy and transformation and goddess play out.
Step 7 - Took the goddesses to the Hammam to finish by bathing in what feels like the Alhambra palace and being covered in oils of Pomegranate and Red Amber
Step 8 - Float back up the albaycin at midnight cooing at the Moon and the Alhambra at every nook and cranny in the street.
The Devil - Day 16 - Atonement - Capricorn
Holy Moly! Both my co-host Natalie and myself pulled him in the morning circle!
It is Natalie’s day to lead, we will be power walking around Granada, listening to a music track in each place doing Flamenco moves to connect into the underground elements present in the Jewish, Muslim, Gyspsy and Christian areas.
It was POWERFUL! And relentless! Just look how hot and Flamenco like this Devil is!
The heat rose and rose - apparently it was the hottest day, we were wilting and had to cut the tour short and return up the hill in air conditioned taxis.
We were rewarded at the top though - with a proper Moorish Mint Lemonade from the tea house next door, still there wasn’t enough shade, we kept having to move out of the blistering Sun.
We found shade to fire up the Goddesses with Flamenco and their photoshoot!
LOOK HOW DEVILISH WENDY (SAT DOWN BY THE CHAINS) LOOKS ABOVE - AND ALL OF THEM BELOW! GANGSTER GODDESSES!
Each Goddess had their own shoot, Natalie puts them in a pose and they held it - OH MY DID THEY HOLD IT! In public!
Not something they would have ever thought they would have done before now and they aren’t blinking and eyelid!
Day 17 - The Tower - Atonement! Mars!
Today’s the day the Goddess has risen, and we all get blow apart! In other words go our separate ways!
First off it’s time to get the car out the garage - we got it in so surely we can get it out?
80 point turn is the only way - crickey!
The risk of crashing is so Tower.
At one point we thought we were getting into such a tight spot we would have to back track but we decided to be brave and push on through and it was only a turn or two later that we made it through the worst and everything opened up - lesson of The Tower alright!
After which I head to my private accommodation to check out there too. Packing up my huge rucksack and suitcase, I am not looking forward to lugging this all the way down through the cobbled streets of the Albaycin to catch a taxi at Plaza Nueva.
So I have a fabulous idea!
I will ask the friendly man in the bar next to the retreat to call me one - except it’s Monday and they are closed.
The one next door is open - okay I will go there, but the man tells me I am only allowed to be there if I eat and I don’t have time for that - I’m already late to pick up my car which could cost me so way down we go...
Okay at least it’s not way up - but it’s raining - and rain on the slippery cobbles of the Albaycin with weighty luggage is not a great mix.
Still I thank God it’s not uphill and eat my words of the weekend - “if someone gave me the choice of going to the gym or lugging my baggage around the Albaycin - i’d choose the latter!”
I am struck by how much The Tower in The Muse pictures the feeling of what I had to go through finding my way out of the Albaycin!
Day 18 The Star - Gets Gift (or PCR test) - Aquarius
She makes her presence felt by being my guiding north star on my way for my PCR test.
I’ve arrived at Almunecar - my favourite place on the Costa Del Sol, my hosts have covid, but they are keeping their isolated distance (very Aqaurius) - I am aware of their presence (and cough) in the house above and that’s about this .
This morning I need to go for my PCR test.
First I go to the centre but the receptionist says “it’s not here it’s at jesuses restaurant 1 minute that way”
Really? A PCR test at Jesus’s restaurant? I think 🤔 this is a very strange thing - even for Spain 🇪🇸 but okay! 🤷🏽♀️I mean she did seem very sure! 🤔
So off I set, follow that guiding star to Jesus and I walk into Jesuses bar/n and find Mary sat there so I ask her for a PCR test 🤷🏽♀️ you know like you do.
She can’t understand me so calls no other than Jesus himself - I get to meet Jesus!! 😱
But he speaks Spanish or French not English and he can’t understand me either so I figure he can’t save me so I send gratitude and honour his presence in my life and walk out to see the PCR centre - OPPOSITE 🤣
Then my booking is messed up… I said Wednesday - they said Tuesday - I arrived on Tuesday - they booked Wednesday 🙈 they said “not possible” but by the time I stood there like this 😵💫 for a few seconds they’d got me in with a doc to stick a swab up my nose for 4 seconds - 97 quid, I mean he was rather gorgeous but still what a privilege! 🤨
It’s still raining - typical!
I finally get to the beach and it’s english weather, but it clears up when the sun goes down so in the evening I chill out at a beach restaurant with Claro con limon and cats to an awesome 80’s soundtrack - hungry like the wolf and girls just wanna have fun 🤩 have been here for hours in my own party 🎉 zone even though it’s raining and they came with the la Quinta without asking hours ago 🤣 … don’t they know if they want me to leave they have to turn the 80’s and dancing cats off? 🤷🏽♀️🤣 oh and that it only takes 1 claro con limon para mi?! 🤣
Finally manage to prize myself away and on the way home I pass the tropic hotel who have a Tom Jones tribute singer singing “Sex Bomb 💣” 😖 so glad I didn’t eat there even if I could hear the Spanish singing “Sax Bum” 🤣
The Moon - Day 19 - Return Changed - Pisces
I finally make it to the ocean side, and open my covid test results - the tell tale moment of whether I am ready to return changed or not.
I’m returning, changing - and red.
It’s still a bit cool and blustery so I underestimate the power of the Sun and return home pink as a lobster. Great!
Feeling a bit solitary and moody today, I have a couple of nice calls with my clients on a 1-2-1 level and love the connection - but i’m just feeling a bit WAH - Flat I think.
I had such a great time last night with one Claro Con Limon and 80’s music! Honestly that was the best party for one I ever had!
Being my last night here I decide to go back to the bar and try to relive the past - a very Moony thing to do, but of course things are always changing, can we ever truly go back and capture the past?
I return to the bar, there’s more people, and the bar next door is open too, the music from each is battling - I move as close as possible to the speaker! My Claro con Limon arrives and Oh yeah - it’s not quite the same but a couple of gulps and the 80’s are still there and….
Funny how I find myself in love with you.
If I could buy my reasoning, I'd pay to lose
One half won't do
I've asked myself, how much do you
It's my life, don't you forget
It's my life, it never ends (it never ends)
Funny how I blind myself, I never knew
If I was sometimes played upon, afraid to lose
I'd tell myself, what good you do
It's my life, don't you forget
It's my life, it never ends (it never ends)
I've asked myself, how much do you
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
Except it does!
The plug gets pulled on the jukebox after that one song and swapped for live Flamenco - and i’m sorry but I’ve been spoiled by Natalie and Cacho who have a whole nother level going on - and this is painful - especially sat right next to the speaker.
This time I can’t get la quinta and return to my apartment fast enough -and there’s my answer.
You can’t go back and relive the past - it’s always changing. You gotta enjoy the good times when they sneak up on you, and keep going forward.
This is a BIG thing for someone with their Moon in Cancer (me) - letting go of the past.
I have my Sun and Moon in fixed signs too. Clingy? Yup!
I’ve worked on it a lot over the years, and I'd like to think I am far more graceful than clingy these days - well, at least externally.
If someone said to me Tiff what’s the hardest thing about life? I’d say changing times - and in particalur that people go.
I can deal with changing times (just) but the changing people - I find that tough, if I love you I really love you and being a Leo with a Cancer Moon Venus conjunction square Pluto I always find something to love about anyone - it's like I’m destined to be broken hearted by everyone.
I have learnt over the years that giving attention to that part of myself only serves when the connection is there - and when it’s over it’s time to tap into my Mercury in Virgo and Mars and Jupiter in Gemini and press on pragmatically.
Internally a lot of change has happened the last couple of weeks, there’s nothing like getting out of your day to day environment to wake you up, but now I am returning - will I really be changed? Or will the old ways creep up on me and take me back into a slumber?
Day 20 - The Sun - The Sun! Return Changed!
t’s my last day, check out is at 11 and my flight isn’t until 9, well that means I’ll be kicked out and have to spend the day on the beach and not at my desk - and the sun is shining so that’s a good thing!
Except I’m still red as a lobster, so I am sunbathing in my dress and it’s just too hot, time to get in the ocean - finally, oh my! That is sooooooo good, I could just stay right here - and so I do, until it’s time to drive to Malaga - getting up from the beach I feel Spain calling me to stop for a moment. To plant my feet in the sand, and so I do, I tune in and listen, and in the sea breeze I hear it ask me what I want.
I ask for it and it feels granted.
Judgment - Day 21 - Return Changed- Pluto
Sometimes the next card kicks in the evening before and this most definitely happened.
Last night when the plane took off at sunset the Sun went down and I was being lifted up and flying high in the Judgment card. Taken away from one lease of life and about to relive another.
Judgment is one of the most powerful and fastest cards in the Tarot and there was no mistaking this!
Within 24 hours I had driven from Almunecar to Malaga to catch a plane to Bristol, driven to Bath to sleep and work and then jumped in the car to drive another 4 hours to Ipswich for my ex PA and student’s 50th - I got there late, poked my head in, booked a hotel and arrived at witching hour.
I spent the next two hours trying to “land” and wind down to Gordon Ramsey’s judgmental effing and blinding - who does that?!
Hmm, I’m definitely feeling different!
WORLD- Day 22 - Return Changed - Saturn
I wake up in a hotel - i’m home but not quite, I get up and go for a walk around the grounds - it’s very nice, and does kind of feel like The World in the Tarot - especially the statue outside. Random!
Breakfast is an add on but eff it! I have just done the Hero’s Journey! Totally visiting the spa too before jumping in the car to finally return changed.
I have a deadline though - some friends are staying the weekend in a campsite and we are going out for dinner.
Ipswich is a mega long way from Bath - I thought if I left 5 hours it would be fine, but as I get in my husband is leaving to pick them up for dinner - and I still have my day 2 PCR test to figure out - which I fail miserably to do btw.
So I give up and go meet them at the Hare and Hounds - an epic Bathonian pub with an epic Bathonian view, tonight the Moon is nearly full and pink - it reminds me of the dream I had on the first night of the journey - returning changed? Hmm!
After dinner we go to the campsite - v.cool! Closest thing to a festival we are getting this year!
And experience goes deeper than that - I had a personal disappointment on Judgment and woke up today wondering what the hell I was going to do - in a round about way this place offers a glimmer of hope - and if it comes through everything will change and not in that bad way - in the most fantastic way...
My husband tells me of a sad story of someone he knew in Cornwall who was a genius who started to develop dementia and couldn’t face the prospect of his amazing mind deteriorating so he wrote a suicide note saying he didn’t believe in burials so not to look for him because he won’t be found- an unsuccessful search party had just been called off.
It made me think of how it’s important in a lot of cultures to have a burial for the spirit to pass.
Strangely, when we looked up the campsite this morning it’s called “Tuckers Grave” Tucker was buried at the crossroads here after he hung himself in a nearby barn in 1747 - at the time suicides were buried at crossroads to purposely confuse the soul.
Poor Tucker - I hope he returns changed.
As for me and you, this Full Moon in Pisces marks the end of an epic journey where we return changed.
Maybe you are still locked down, maybe you’ve had a staycation, or maybe like me you’ve been globetrotting.
But rest assured, whether you have gone anywhere physically in the last six months - you have journeyed, and now is the time for you to return changed.
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And kudos! You have now reached the end of this Epic blog and returned changed!
Wishing you a WONDER FULL MOON and EPIC Return - looking forward to seeing you somewhere along the way :)